Woo am in Zante!! So exciting!! Never written from an internet cafe and prob wont again. Dont have much time left!

Well been here nearly a week now and it is such a beautiful island. Dont really have time to tell you everything but having an amazing time and may write more later. xxx

:)Happy post:)

Seen as I am yet to write a post where I'm not moaning about something and being generally bored or cheased off, this post shall be named, 'Happy Post'!! :)

One day until Zante and feeling really relaxed and happy:) Mainly owing to the fact that I'm a child of God and He loves me:) Sang at two weddings today and was reminded of how awesome and imense God's love is. In the second wedding,Tim,our vicar, used an analogy of rope with three strands interwoven, representing The bride, groom and God as the third strand. A single strand is fairly weak, two strands are stronger, but with the third strand the rope is virtually unbreakable.

Something else happened but I wont talk about that cos this is a happy post:) But prayed about it and i know God has it sorted.:)

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Well my room is full of flies and we have no air conditioning! AARRHG!! I think its been the hottest day of the year today and ive had 3 showers to try and keep my body temeperature down. I like this weather during the day when theres somewhere to go away from the heat-if there isnt its unbearable. But nightime is aweful. Can't sleep and then I get moody and then I think about stuff way too much and it drives me mad!! But then I'm sure alot of people feel the same.

Today I was sat in my room and started thinking-why do I believe in God? How do we actually know He's real? I mean I do, obviously, I just had a moment of not being able to get my head round it all. So I asked my parents and my Dad said, 'If your real, then He's real.' I thought that was quite good when I got my head round it:) I thought about alot of stuff today lol!! I think tommorrow I should get off my bum and do something!

Hmm not really sure why this is bothering me but here goes... Went to the youth service at my church last night. The girl who lead the worship sang I've Had Questions at the end, but totally changed the tune in the verses and I just couldnt sing it, cos I was so aware of it not sounding the same. But now I feel really bad cos it shouldnt matter what it sounded like for me to woship God, so why did it? I think sometimes I can be quite a critical person or get quite distrcted from God by really stupid things. But then I guess we all can sometimes right?

Well I quit my job and it was fine:) Have two weeks at home now and then I go to Zante-can't wait.

Today I went into town with my sister and bought Spring Harvest music from 2006/07-its really good and has lots of songs I know which is good. Been practicising alot of worship songs on piano lately in the hope that one day I can play in a worship band in York! Hmm... I haven't told many people this but I would really like to be a worship leader some day-but trying to discern at the moment if thats actually something God wants me to do and asking him for oppoetunities to get involved in worship next year-although I did do that this year and it didnt really happen-but maybe its all about Gods timing and being in the right place etc etc...

Decided to quit my job... Not sure how to go about it though. Just decided its far too stressful- constantly feel got at and cristicised by my supervisor and can't see it getting any better :( Ah well.

Hmm thought I'd do this for a change! Not really sure what to write... Am so tired my mind is blank... Well I did my last shift at work until next thurs and tomo I will be heading to York-yey! Although I need to find some energy before then. Not been sleeping too well, which sucks a bit. You kindve get stuck in a rut of thinking, 'I can't sleep tonight' and as soon as that happens it usually means that inevatibly you won't sleep! I think its the heat aswell and suddenly having the pressure of working and I don't think being told I got a 0 in one of my assessments which I did do, helped much either, but thats sorted now. Oh dear, I need to stop moaning.

One more sleep till York:)

Aww Bek went to India today, I hope she had a good flight:)